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Aug. 21st, 2011 04:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lovethesescarsWhen I was six, my older sister shoved me down a hill into a pile of broken glass because I could play the violin better than she could. The glass caused severe lacerations on my face and I also broke my arm.
I've always told people that the scars on my face were because of an "accident", but in reality the only accidental part about it was that my sister wasn't expecting the broken beer bottles to be there.
I've always told people that the scars on my face were because of an "accident", but in reality the only accidental part about it was that my sister wasn't expecting the broken beer bottles to be there.
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Date: Aug. 22nd, 2011 02:04 am (UTC)In my opinion, no one else really needs to know where the fuck they actually came from. That's for you to know.
I hate this Rift effect. Just going to throw that fucking out there.
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Anyway, I play the violin too. Not that great at it.
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Date: Aug. 22nd, 2011 02:31 am (UTC)[locked]
I haven't played since then, to be honest. I do play the piano a bit, though. I'm decent, I suppose, but nothing special. I never did quite find the emotion in the music again after that.
Sometimes I wonder how things would have been if things had happened differently, but only out of curiosity. For better or for worse, that incident helped shape who I am today, and I wouldn't want to change it. I don't even regret the loss of the music all that much. There are other things that I find my solace and my comfort in now.
...and that was your unexpected philosophical musing for the day. I'm not even sure if that was the Rift's doing or if I've just been staring at columns upon columns of accounting numbers for too long.
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Date: Aug. 22nd, 2011 05:28 am (UTC)[Locked]
I think if there's any experience that would take the emotion of music out of something, that just about could do it.
I can look back on any fucking scar that I have metaphorical or otherwise and say the same. Makes it hard to have regrets if you know every fucking thing led you to where you are today and you want to be that person.
Either way, I don't really mind discussing. Better than trying to face my fucking bar after that particular name reveal. [Yeah, he'slocked himself in his office completely for the week.]
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Date: Aug. 22nd, 2011 09:37 am (UTC)I don't imagine that crowd will ever let you live it down, no.
I have been thoroughly scolded by Phoebe about the amount I have been overworking myself, so she's going to be dragging me out for dinner in a few minutes. We could get together together tomorrow, though, maybe. It always seems like we only ever have time to talk business when we see each other in person. It'd be nice to be able to talk about something non-work related for a change, even if we don't necessarily end up talking about my ~*horribly tragic*~ past. {insert overly melodramatic emo self-loathing here, or something} <-- (Although, you know, If I did that, I might just have to shoot myself in the head. I was bad enough as a teenager.)
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Date: Aug. 22nd, 2011 01:33 pm (UTC)Yeah, I'm not seeing it happening any fucking time soon.
I've been there. I get it. [He has a huge, huge issue with overworking too...and leaving the bar in general is hard for him to do for some weird psychological, fucked up reason that he hasn't been able to figure.
But he doesn't want to be in the bar right now so.] Yeah, sounds good. To be fair, we both work a fucking lot so. But there's nothing wrong with taking a break sometimes.
[And he actually snorts laughter. Not that she can see.] High school is either the time for melodrama or the time for doing really stupid shit. Sometimes it's a combination of the two. We don't want to fall back into those years tho. Never.
Best course of action would be a swift death. [Smirk. He's only half serious.]
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Date: Aug. 22nd, 2011 02:01 pm (UTC)Well, now that the Rift has seen fit to give me back something resembling a staff again, I'm not actually having to take care of everything anymore. Delegation is a wonderful, wonderful thing.
The fact that I'm working this late in my office on a weekend is really rather telling, isn't it? I really need to get out more.
That, or the multiverse decides that it's a perfect time to give you a kick in the pants and tells you to stop being such a whiny brat because nobody gives a shit about your so-called injustices. Granted, there was also plenty of melodrama and stupid shit to annoy my mother before that happened too.
Man, looking back, some of the stuff I used to do to annoy my mother was pretty good times, even if a lot of it was ruined by the fact that I was too busy being ~*serious*~ and ~*angry*~ about everything to actually have fun.
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Date: Aug. 23rd, 2011 05:13 am (UTC)I've had a decent sized staff and I delegate, but I'm always good at finding something to do.
All the time.[Smirk.] It's telling for both of us. I'm in my office working too. With coffee so it's not like I'm thinking about calling it in any time soon.
I've always been a fan of kick in the pants when they're fucking necessary, and they get necessary a lot more often than people think. Think these universes are all just swimming in their own versions of melodrama.
Now see that's the kind of shit I'd like to hear and if you can laugh about it now, it's what counts.
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Date: Aug. 24th, 2011 11:15 am (UTC)My original universe was a fucking soap opera. It was ridiculous.
Oh, I've got plenty of stories. It took a while, but after I got away from my family I was able to grow a sense of humor. Which is good, because if you don't have the ability to laugh at yourself in the Nexus you're going to spend a lot of time being miserable and indignant.
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Date: Aug. 25th, 2011 01:34 am (UTC)One of the most important things you can grow. I think it comes in handy here too even if you still will spent a lot of time being miserable too. If you can't laugh at all, you're just about screwed here and I'm thinking anywhere else.
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Date: Aug. 25th, 2011 09:01 am (UTC)At least here in Chicago we can blame the Rift for most of my problems. In my original universe, we were the ones causing all of our own problems. It gave a rather personal meaning to the quote "Hell is other people."
I can't say I always appreciate the Rift's sense of humor. At least this thing with the journals is fairly minor, even if it is annoying. Some of the other things I've had to deal with have given me raging headaches...literally.
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Date: Aug. 26th, 2011 12:44 am (UTC)Fuck, yeah, I'd be in a forever pissed off mood. People annoy me enough as it is, and most of my problems are Rift related.
Yeah, same. It could be a lot worse, but when people have so little in this universe that's under their own control, it'd be nice if they could keep their secrets.
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Date: Aug. 26th, 2011 02:53 am (UTC)True enough. I suppose I'm just a lot more used to the vagaries of an unstable reality than most.